Old and grey.

My ultimate goal in life is to be able to contribute - in a big way - in providing the elderly with a life worth living, until the end. A life respected as a human being, not treated as a scary and gray burdon. Death and age is something none of us can escape from, no matter how hard we try to shut our eyes to it and hide the ones reminding us of it away. 

We will never stop needing love around us. We will never stop needing the feeling of being appreciated. We all want to be seen, to be touched, to be loved and cared for. 

I now ask of you to please share your thoughts and feelings with me about what a good and happy elderliness would look like - for you. Please forget about all that we are told is 'possible' or 'impossible'. Forget about the lack of time we nowadays feel we have to take care of our own. Let your heart speak, and visualize what your perfect world would look like when you're old and grey. 

I promise, I will do my best to make those dreams and visions a reality one day. It's what I want to do in life, so that's what I'm going to do in life. 

Please feel free to write to me at cgruner.art@gmail.com

Love and thank you,

C

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Let's not.

Few things make me as upset as when human beings exploit defenseless animals. Animals are to be respected just as much as humans, or even more. Since animals still have the wisdom and knowledge in them to respect nature instead of destroy. The human being is destroying a world which we all are depended upon, our children's survival is depended upon.
So to hunt for only the "glory" of ones own ego, and then to teach ones children that it is the right way... Makes my blood boil and my hope for humanity crumble. To kill away the rest of the animals on this planet, as if we aren't already contributing to that enough just with the way we live, is just pure stupidity. We are not above the rest, we are the lowest until we get it.

Love,

C

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"No. I'm happy now."

Hello, my dear ones. I am back in the world of writing.
A while back a good friend of mine asked me if I had done any writing lately (she knows writing is important to me), and my answer was: "No. I'm happy now.". Already, in the moment when I said it, it felt weird. Like a really bad excuse not to be doing something you love: because you're happy?! I thought about my answer, and I realized that the problem for me is that it's so much easier to put the bad into words, than it is the good. When I feel bad I know exactly how to express myself, finding words for every emotion, endless synonyms for describing every inch of every layer of darkness inside of me. But when I'm happy... Then what? It ends there: "I'm happy."? One word to describe the feeling that this whole world seems to be pursuing? Sounds - and is - ridiculous.
So why is it, that it's easier to put words on the bad than it is on the good? I am sure I am not the only one with this little issue. Is it because of the fear of losing the good if we express it? A "Hide the light in the dark, that way no one can find it and take it away from us" mentality? I think yes. And I think it's because we are brought up to pursue happiness. That way, when we finally get a glimpse of it, we automatically fear losing it. Because, in our minds, happiness is hard to get. Something not for everyone, like winning the lottery... So what would happen if we were taught that happiness is attainable - in every situation? That it's not something you pursue, but somethig you already have. You just have to focus on it, find words for it, express it, talk about it instead of pointing out the sh*tty weather. At least one part of the population knows how to pull this off: our children. So what is it that, at some point in our lives, decides that the state, which for a younger human being is natural, isn't an OK state for an older human being? Something to think about maybe...

I have so much more to say about this, about the good and the bad. And this blog, I'm sure, is going to be about both. However, I'm going to leave you with this thought for now and make a promise to myself to learn to write when I'm happy.

Love,

C

Dedicated to my friend, Darya.

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