When the person I was once supposed to be with for always led another life. When who wanted to keep me left me for another. When words were proven to have no worth, to contain no integrity. When trust was broken and hearts ripped out. How can I be bitter? How can I be bitter at someone who broke me into pieces. Who took away all my safety. Who showed me that all can go wrong with commitment. How can I be bitter at someone who had me lose it all. Who gave me noting more to lose. Who enabled me to rebuild myself. Who gave me courage, who gave me strength. Who enabled me to rise above it all, and finally believe in my passion.
When I was put aside. When I was given the cold shoulder. When I was taken for granted. When I forever walked home alone, and every morning woke up lonely. When all I had to give never was enough. How can I be bitter? How can I be bitter, when that loneliness is what tipped me over. When that desperation, that frustration, that never ending fight for love and connection, is what made me finally have enough and believe in my worth.
When I was misled and tricked out of a home. When I was belittled as a being. When others' greediness put my life, my creativity and my income on hold. When all I had planned had nowhere to go. When all I had, was nowhere that was my own. How can I be bitter? How can I be bitter at someone who forced me to cry out for help. Who made me look at myself and revaluate my choices. How can I be bitter at someone who led me to a home beyond my dreams, to friends beyond my expectations, to creativity in new dimensions. How can I be bitter at someone who gave me proof to trust the truth of what is.
How can I be bitter at something that has gotten me this far. That has enabled me to believe in all that I want. And how can I hold a grudge against the ones who made me lose my way so badly, as to find the greatest thing of all.
How can we be bitter?
Love,
Carolina
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